Friday, February 26, 2010

Random Thoughts...

So, even though I doubt anyone looks at this anymore (I know I havent in forever) I decided to write. I feel like writing some thoughts that are floating in my mind. If someone ever reads them, great. If nobody ever does, probably just as well. Here it goes...

Once upon a time I lived in Canada for 6 months as a missionary intern. Intern = slave to anyone. It was the most amazing experience. I learned and grew so much. My life was touched by many and I think I touched a few lives myself. The sad thing that I now realize is how terribly young and immature I was then. There are people I hurt, people who may never forgive me. For that I am truly sorry. To those I hurt when I was there I am so sorry. My goal was to experience God in a new and different way, to share Christ's amazing love to others. My intention was never to hurt or hinder anyone's walk with God or anyone's purpose in sharing God's love. I know that I did more good than bad, but I feel sad for the bad that may have happened..

That was 5 years ago now. 5 years since Ive seen my Canadian brothers and sisters. Heartbreaking.

Jan. 2006 I went away to college. Washington Bible College in Lanham, Maryland. For 2 years Maryland was my home, my friends who quickly became my family were there, it was my life. It was amazing. Both good and bad experiences. Mostly good. The sad thing now is I have lost contact with most of those people. Sure, I know those things happen. People lose contact with people all the time. However, living on campus for 2 years you experience things that others can never know unless they share in the experience. I feel that if any of those people walked into my life right now, they would have a friend, a sister in me. I wonder if that is true on the other side. Would I still have a friend in those people that I share so many memories with? My heart hurts, because I long to visit Maryland again. I long to have even 5 minutes with my friends there... Someday.

My greatest joy in all this, even though the world is a bigger place than I would like sometimes. I have pieces of my heart in so many places, someday we will all be united in Heaven. If my friends are truly a part of my family they will be there one day and we will see one another again and share in the joy of praising our God! How amazing and how small the world seems when looking at it in such a different perspective.

3 comments:

  1. WRONG!! Still look at it...that is when you post! HAHA! It is hard when friends are far away! Definitely exciting that this life is just the beginning...not the end! God is good!

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  2. WEIRD!! i just logged on expecting to see the same old posts from my friends that have been in that little box for forever, but i was wrong. i kinda felt like writing too, not sure why exactly, maybe i'm feeling discouraged and just want to get stuff off my chest. anyhoo, i digress. i'm glad to see that you were also in a sharing mood, i love reading your posts. i get to pretend like we still talk to eachother and know what's going on in one another's lives. i feel kinda blessed to have been your friend through the times you described here. even though we didn't live near eachother or have a ton of contact, we were friends nonetheless. and that's cool. i love you!

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  3. I read it too...when people post ;) I kinda dont really use this either.....

    Friends are amazing. God puts them in our lives for a time and season. Sometimes they stay and sometimes they come and go. As sad as it is sometimes to lose friends, God always brings more!! ;)

    <3 you girl. Thanks for your sweet note on Friday. Lets go out sometime. :) Happy Sunday~

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